index by Beeyotch

I was 21. I just got out of college. I wanted to explore the world. I wanted to go to the US and travel around Europe. Tapos maiyak at matakot kasi naliligaw ako sa isang bansa na hindi ako pamilyar. At siguro, tumira sa Thailand for a year or two. I also wanted to work three jobs at a time. Gusto kong maranasan na mahirapan sa pagbabayad ng rent sa apartment. Gusto kong makaaway iyong landlady ko kasi ubod ng sungit. I also wanted to adopt a dog and complain because I couldn’t take care of it. He wanted to settle down but I wanted to do so many things in my life. Magkaiba iyong priorities namin. Still, I asked him to wait. That maybe after a year or two, we could talk about it again. Ang selfish ko pero gusto ko kasi na kapag ayos na ako, nandyan pa rin siya. There’s the comfort in knowing that after all of this, he’s still there, waiting for me. But two years, seven days, three hours, five minutes, and thirty seconds later, I was in a church. I watched him get married to someone else.